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Tony Farrell's Journey Inward To Discover Who I Am And Why I Am Here
Choosing Nonreaction – My Entire Life Has Been One Big Fat Lie
They say the truth is out there, and I ask what truth? What really is true? And where exactly is “there”? All I know for sure at this point is that (almost) everything in my entire life has been one big, fat lie. For example, all of my learned reactions to various happenings are all [...]
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Returning to My Inherent Innocence – Unconventional Extreme Forgiveness
The more I progress towards discovering, accepting and appreciating the truth of who I really am, the more happy (content), peaceful, joyous and free I become. No longer holding myself back, I accelerate forward into wondrous new uncharted territory of tremendous and unlimited potential to positively impact the world, an incredible fulfilling journey fueled primarily [...]
Restoration of Family Relationships – Radical Thanksgiving For Bad Behavior
My family of origin has not been together now for the past four holiday seasons following certain actions taken by certain members, which includes all six of us to some degree or another. That is, one of us took action proactively followed by the others taking action reactively, and we all played our role. You [...]
Amazing Thought Expansion at Higher Brain Living – Created Resolutions
In short, this is quickly becoming one of the most profound, intense and eye opening experiences of my entire life. Hands down. When I try to explain to someone exactly what Higher Brain Living is, I always have trouble finding the right words. This is likely because the experience itself cannot be done justice by [...]
Demolishing the house and clearing rubble leaves an empty lot
Old and worn, battered and torn, lacking maintenance and unoccupied, it was an eyesore in the neighborhood. The owner, however, was very attached to this place which his family called home for generations. Unfortunately, though, the foundation was crumbling, the walls were crooked, the roof was leaky, and the water damage significant. There was no [...]
To celebrate, I died on my birthday
Strangely enough, this year as I turned 35 years old, I was far more aware of death than I was of birth. Maybe it’s just me getting older, turning that midlife corner whereby everything gradually degrades from there on in, or so they say. Maybe it was the perceived chaos surrounding me at the time. [...]
How to be absolutely certain about everything
Raise you’re hand if you’re sure, confident and secure! If only it was so easy to be sure about everything by just simply raising my hand. There are only a handful of things that I really know to be certain, however, even of them I would concede that I am not entirely certain. They are [...]
Re-Entry Into Higher Brain Living – Waited Long Enough
This is the true beginning of a remarkable new journey, one that I am very excited to begin. I had previously already written a ‘purpose of my life’ statement. That was in January before I tried out the HEART (Human Energence And Rapid Transformation) sessions, and afterward I did the two-session try-it-out deal, as did [...]
Flowering – A Poem About Enlightenment
Flowering Standing now on the cusp And stepping into my shadow, Delighting as it were In the skunk’s black stripes. Viewing the ego’s castle from afar, Walls saturated with lipstick prints. Abandoning the unreal totality, Discovering deep emptiness abound. All former deceptions Casually etched on gravestones. Purest perception arises From vast, barren caverns within. The [...]
What Happened To The Fun In My Life – How Pleasure Seeking Destroyed Itself
PLEASURE SEEKING At the end of the day, what I really want is just to feel good. However, all pleasure seeking I’ve done in my life has ultimately rewarded me with very little beyond maybe some sense of accomplishment and good feeling which was very fleeting at best, especially including indulging in food, sex and [...]
Golden wedding anniversary – transforming from roommates to life partners
To celebrate I asked my gorgeous and talented wife Hillery – of all things – to take a nap with me. This fundamental expression of the true nature of our current state of romance could not have been more simple or pure. We don’t have fluttery butterflies. We don’t have large scale anger blowouts. We [...]
